Artisticmystic

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Well, we do hang out together more as a couple rather than “gaming buddies” so to say. I mean does a “buddy” go shoe shopping with a woman (seeing the most perfect set of legs trying on heels, sweet Jesus)? And yes, she’s smokin hot.

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Ok Melissa, I just shot you an email

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I believe it’s estrogen, because she has A cups. That’s what makes them grow right? She said she wants to be a D cup. I think she wants implants.

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Do the hormones cause an increase in appetite? Even though she’s very petite, she can eat twice as much as I do. She took down 2 triple cheeseburgers and a large order of fries in record time.

Also, I wanted to talk to someone about a more personal matter. It’s not something I want to put on the forum.

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MelissaD I understand, but at the same time wouldn’t you want to help someone you are fond of to achieve their dream? To be who they really are inside? She’s never had facial hair so that’s not an issue. She has A cup breasts from what I’ve noticed and her legs (that she always catches me looking at, oops) can make even J.Lo jealous. I know there will be challenges and such, and I’m aware that her family may not approve of us being together (she’s told me a few of her cousins and uncles are 100% racist), and she gets some horrible insults thrown at her whenever she’s out with her friends (from bigots. Most of her friends are also transgender) and on more than a few occasions she’s called me crying and I had to go get her. I guess the other hurdle for me to attempt to get past is the physical part. As I’ve told DeeAnn she’s has called and texted me late nights wanting me to come over (she lives two doors down from me) or wanting to come by my place and I know deep down inside that the probabilities are high that something will go down between us. The temptation would be too much to bear and I don’t want her to think it’s rejection on my part.

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I couldn’t possibly ask her to pay me back in money as she’s having a hard time financially. Wouldn’t you do that for a friend! It’s just food and toiletries.

I would hope she’s not thinking of just “returning the favor” as she’s better than that to “sell herself.” Plus she knows that I’m 3 years into celibacy. I know that sometimes she gets afraid at night and wants someone there just in case.

The temptation sometimes is too much for me sometimes, especially when I’m at work thinking about her.

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I was actually thinking on taking out a 401k loan to help her with her prescriptions.

And yes, the restraint was extremely hard (no pun intended). Do you think I should have went over there?

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Hi DeeAnn.

This weekend was quite an event so to speak. I had no idea her hormones cost so much! I came over and noticed that she had barely any food in her kitchen. With bills and her hormones to pay for, she’s left with very little. I took her to the grocery store and loaded her up with about two weeks worth of food. She could hardly believe it. I reminded her that it’s something friends do, and it was no problem. Saturday night she came over and we had dinner. I made some curry chicken which I know is one of her favorites. She asked me is this two friends having dinner or is it a “date?”

I answered “date.”

Again, she turned that pretty pink when she blushed and looked away. While we ate we had a talk about what we wanted to do going forward, how I was romantically interested yet I didn’t want anything to spoil our friendship. She wanted to know how I felt about what people would say….again we live in the south and we would be an interracial couple.

I live for me, not everyone else. So people can talk about me until their eyes bleed. My happiness is MY happiness. I guess she was wondering if i were serious or just wanted to “experiment” and that she would pay me back for her groceries as soon as she is able. I told her not to worry about it.

She sent me a text this morning at about 2am asking if I were awake and if so, wanting me to come over. Ladies, it took everything in my soul to stay home. I wanted to go to her so bad…..I can feel myself wanting more from her everyday. Is that bad? Any advice from anyone?

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I understand Melissa. I sent a text this morning to make sure she was ok from last night. Without thinking I texted “good morning gorgeous.” She responded with “ you’re making me blush” before telling me that I make her feel “protected,” whatever that means.

She has friends, about 4 or 5 that she hangs with every other weekend to go to the clubs with and they are very supportive. She says that I’m the only straight friend she has and I remind her all the time that we don’t need labels, and that I’m her FRIEND.

But that kiss, I think it may have changed the way I see her. Like before we were buds hanging out, but now I see her as a blossoming goddess. She has caught me staring at her legs or her lips as she talks, but I usually look away quickly when she notices it. I guess she isn’t the only one on an emotional rollercoaster huh?

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DeeAnn I hear you. I really do.

But I can’t get that kiss, or her, out of my mind. Before anyone thinks it’s a lust thing, just know that I have been celibate for the past 3 years.

Like I said, I don’t want to ruin our friendship, but at the same time, the attraction will just continue to grow.

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As kink? You mean as some play toy to use at my discretion? Never that. I’m already protective of her and would never use her in that way. Emotional rollercoaster is what I kinda saw last night. We were playing the new Mortal Kombat and she was getting really frustrated to almost breaking into tears. I gave her a hug and told her “hey, it’s just a stupid game” before I turned it off and we watched a bunch of csi reruns.

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Hello, this is my first post here and I just need some friendly ears and advice for I am at a crossroads in my life.

I am currently friends with a guy who’s transitioning. We’ve been good friends for about 3 years and I’ve always known him to be on the more effeminate side, but that really didn’t bother me as we were just cool peeps. He admitted to me one day that he was gay and my response to that was, “ok, so are we going half on the pizza or what?” In other words, it didn’t bother me and we continued our friendship.

For the past year he has started wearing makeup and dressing up to go to the clubs with his other transgendered friends. I always tell him to be careful because here in the city, some of the haters do some really hateful things to the patrons.

A few months ago I had to pick up my friend as his ride was too drunk to drive him back home. No problem, not something that I had a problem with.

When I got there, sure enough, I saw his friends, 3 sheets to the wind so to say, and a reddish blonde goddess sitting off to the side. It was my friend! I was completely in awe. She came up to me and said, thanks for coming, I really need to get home and out of these heels!

In my mind I was thinking, “damn, they look really good on you…”

So we’re on the way back to her place and I keep glancing over while making small talk about the latest video game that has come out. My palms were sweating and I don’t know what came over me, but I just blurted it out….”you look amazing.”

She blushed and turned pretty pink, and turned away from me….but in the windows reflection, I saw her smile.

Once we made it back to her apartment, I walked her to the door and made sure she made it in safely. Before I left, I again said, “you look….really good.”

She kissed me. I was taken aback, but I kissed her back passionately. After that I went home and we made no mention of what happened between us.

Fast forward to today. I think about her all the time. I can’t get her out of my mind and I find any excuse to be with her. She’s just started taking hormones and her family hasn’t really come to terms with it. My question is, what should I do? I don’t want to ruin our friendship, but I also don’t want to miss out on being with a great girl.

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