How Do You Know if You Are Trans?

[carlaroberts]

I’m not sure it’s actually knowing, but a persistent feeling that has been with me as long as I can remember. Growing up in a small town where everyone knew everyone and everything about them, I was the child that joined with the girls on the elementary school playground, and avoided sports activities. I wanted to be one of the girls enjoying what they did, wearing what they were wearing.
I had been

In middle and high school, having to be in the boy’s locker room was terrible experience, even though my physical characteristics were much the same as everyone else’s, I felt exposed and embarrassed, and being less masculine, I was often the target of teasing and humiliation as if I were a girl. I remember wishing to live in a world where there were only girls and women.
I tried to engage in more masculine activities, and was quite successful, but I didn’t enjoy them, only doing them as a means to survive. But, surviving isn’t thriving, living in stealth, only allowing myself brief opportunities to express and experience the feelings of being my true self on rare occasions often fraught with anxiety.
After many years of working and accepting my culturally imposed role, I was finally in a position to claim my rightful place as a Trans woman. Too late in life for procedures that would confirm my identity legally where I live, I have been able to live and present in the way I feel is appropriate. There are those who question myself identity, choosing labels they feel comfortable with, but I am the one who decides ultimately, and I am happy to be Trans, whatever that means.
Carla

[sissygirltoo]

Hi ladies,
I’m not sure if I’m a cd or a Trans or both maybe, I too was very interested in girl things especially clothes and makeup and with mom’s loving help I was in heaven most of the time, this went on for 8 years or so until my mom remarried.

Then as a adult I enjoyed it very much too, having long stretches of dressing up with the right gf, funny 2 wife’s never really cared about playing girly games but 2 gf’s loved it, never get married just have gf’s lol just kidding, but anyway when I’m fully dressed up I’m 100% girl I can’t help myself even to the point of daydreaming about kissing boys.

Now I need advice on kinda of a different topic my wife’s granddaughter I think is in love with me, let me start from the beginning about a year ago as usual we had the grandkids over and they were leaving and granddaughter asked me for a hug which none have never done until now, I said sure bent down and we hugged but she gave me a kinda special one it just felt different, later that night I told my wife I think she’s falling in love with me or she really likes me I can’t remember exactly what I said, wife was unimpressed what ever, then about a month later I was walking by and she said will you pick me up and I said sure I realize now I should have said no what do you need, but I picked her up anyway and that’s were it started.

[joannesometimes]

I have always felt like I should have been born a girl, every night I would pray to God to let me wake up as a girl, it never happened. All thru my youth I would dress up in my older sister’s things, I progressed to wearing makeup & doing my hair. Dressing up in the house was getting to be just not enough so I started sneaking outside at night after everyone went to bed, I loved walking around town dressed completely as a girl, I hated it when I had to go back home & change. Soon I began wondering what it would be like to be with a man as a girl, I finally got my chance while hitch hiking one day, the guy who picked me up told me he was bi sexual & I told him about my wanting to be a girl, we made plans to meet at the park down the street from my house on Friday night, I got all dressed up for him, I did my hair, makeup & I even polished my finger nails & toe nails. We started kissing in his car & the next thing I knew, I was giving him oral sex, I found that I really liked giving oral sex & loved the taste of his sperm. He talked me into trying anal sex with him & I found that I really liked that also, I remember thinking the whole time, I hope I don’t get pregnant. At 19 I got engaged to a girl & we married, I’ll never forget seeing all of the clothes, shoes & makeup she had for the first time, I knew I would be wearing everything she had soon. I used our first Halloween together to dress up in front of her, I made it look like it was all her idea but she kind of knew something was not right when she seen that I shaved my whole body & I made her pierce my ears & pluck my eyebrows then polish my finger nails & toe nails. After the party I left my makeup on & wore panties & a nightgown to bed. The next day, she came home early from work & caught me fully dressed, sitting at her vanity doing my makeup with my hair up in electric curlers. She asked me a lot of questions & I wound up telling her that I wanted her to get on female hormones so I could take them, just until I got small boobies then I would stop but that was a lie, I wanted large boobies, the bigger the better. I was now wearing a bra, panties & pantyhose every day, even under my work clothes, any time I was at home I was wearing makeup, nail polish, heels & a dress or a skirt, I wore nightgowns every night & I threw out all of my male underwear & socks, I even started wearing my wife’s jeans, tops & flats when we would go out shopping. I would get my wife to give me oral sex & when I would orgasm in her mouth, I would make her spit it into my mouth, she told me on several occasions that our friends were noticing that I was wearing mascara & pantyhose & that I had my ears pierced & my eyebrows were plucked. The straw that broke the camels back was when she caught me getting dropped off in front of our apartment by my boy friend who I snuck out to meet after she fell asleep, she was standing at the window watching me kissing him & rubbing his crotch, to top it off he had given me a hickey on my neck while he was screwing me & I didn’t know it. I walked up the steps to our apartment & sat down on the sofa, just as I sat down the light turned on & there stood my wife, she asked me how long have I been getting dressed up & sneaking out at night to see my boy friend, I told her I didn’t have a boy friend & that’s when she told me she was standing at the window watching me kiss him & rub his crotch then she asked me if my boy friend gave me the hickey on my neck while he was screwing me, I meekly looked at her & said yes. She said her & her mother would be by tomorrow after work to get her things, she said that I may as well be dressed as a girl because she said she told her mother all about my dressing as a girl & wanting to take female hormones & wanting to be with men, she said her mother noticed that her panties were stretched out when she did her wash for her. She told me now I can live full time as a girl & have my boy friend stay over with me because she was divorcing my sissy ass.

[Star]

It’s a feeling inside you with a yearning g to be that never ever goes away. .if it were anything else it would.

[Author]

Posts