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These Eyes

| May 27, 2013
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©2013 by Dallas Denny

I’ve often written about pain as the defining characteristic of transsexualism. All too often we write as if the pain is all there is — and for many transsexuals, it IS all there is. Being in the gender of birth is simply unbearable.

My pain was ever present, but was more, as I’ve said before, like a rock in my shoe than a knife in my breast. Still, I think you’ll agree after viewing the photos, it showed in my eyes.

When I was a child, I had happy eyes. . .

Happy Child Eyes

. . . but by the time I was in high school, the pain was showing.

Dallas School Photo ca 1964

Ten years later my eyes clearly reflected my pain.

Me, late 1970s

Crossdressing didn’t make the pain go away.

Knoxville 2, Detail

Time for My Closeup, Mr. De Mille

In 1989, as I was approaching transition, my eyes were perhaps less sad. . .

Red 09

. . . but photos taken after my transition don’t show the pain, for there was none.

White and Green Curtain

My Eyes, 1990

Twenty-four years later my eyes are old — but pain-free.

My Eyes Today

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Dallas Denny

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Much of Dallas' work is available on her website. Dallas Denny is a writer, activist, and educator. She holds a M.A. and was licensed to practice psychology for many years. She retired her license after relocating to Georgia. Dallas founded and was for eight years Executive Director of the American Educational Gender Education Service. She started the Atlanta Gender Explorations support group in 1990. She was part of the group that started the Southern Comfort conference and did programming for the conference. She has long been involved with Fantasia Fair, where she was Director for six years. Dallas was editor of the journal "Chrysalis" from 1990-1998 and "Transgender Tapestry" from 2000-2006. She has three published three books and many book chapters and journal and magazine articles. Dallas holds a number of honors, including IFGE’s Trinity and Virginia Prince Lifetime Achievement Awards and Real Life Experience’s Transgender Pioneer Award.

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  1. sweetchick sweetchick says:

    The eyes can tell us a lot about our bodies, remenber when the doc use to look into your eyes as one of the routine part of your exam, because he could tell a lot about what ailed you from checking your eyes. Even people who deal in herbs still look into one eyes and can tell a lot about your health. So if the eyes can tell us so much about our physical health, it would only make good sense that the eyes could tell about emontional well being. The eyes can talk, if only people can hear and read them. They can tell more about us than any other part of the body if we just look!

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