Part of The Baroness’ Fetish Retinue

Some terms for clarification:

fetish noun \fe-tish\

: An object believed to have magical powers.

: An object of unreasoning devotion.

: An object whose real or fantasied presence is psychologically necessary for sexual gratification.

retinue noun \ret-n-u\

: The body of attendants or followers of a distinguished person.

sadist noun\sa-dist\

: A person who gains gradification from inflicting physical or mental pain on others.

masochist: noun \ma-sa-kist\

: A person who gains gradification from being abused or dominated.

SMBD: Sado Masochist Bondage Domination

Dominant or Dom: Someone who controls or prevails over all others.

Submissive or Sub: Someone who gives up control to another.

Switch: Someone who is both Dominant and Submissive depending on the situation.

Toys: Any whip, cane, flogger, paddle, rope, chain, hand cuffs, blind fold, straight jacket, tape, electric shocking device, etc. used to cause pain or prevent movement.

Play: Any activity between a Dom & Sub using toys.

As many of you know I am very involved in the SMBD, Fetish community. Many people who haven’t actually been exposed to this lifestyle, think about it in Hollywood terms of some dark sinister person torturing an innocent bystander against their will. I’m sure that somewhere on this planet there is someone being abused against their will. We hear about things like that all the time in the news. I must say, in the communities I have been exposed to, no one is subjected to anything they don’t want done to them.

I have had the extreme pleasure of working for and serving an extraordinary woman named, The Baroness, Grand Queen Madam of Latex Fetish Fashions and a highly respected and world renowned celebrity in the SMBD Fetish communities. I met this amazing woman by chance about three and a half years ago when I attended a gathering of her retinue  for a fetish party with another friend of mine who was involved in the community. I arrived at her Boutique in Manhattan, New York as she was frantically gathering Models and toys together right before one of her events. She looked me up and down and then asked me if I wanted to be a performer on stage with her that evening. I had no idea what that meant at the time, but said with excitement, “YES!” I signed a model release, and three and a half years later I have experienced things that I never dreamed of.

The Baroness’ favorite toy is a 10′ bull whip, which I have stood in front of and taken some lashes from, on a few occasions. The sensation from being hit with a whip is extreme. It feels like it cuts right through you — like being shot. (Almost!) I have also experienced floggings and paddling, been bound and gagged, and mummified with medical tape.

Some of you might ask, “Why the heck would anyone subject themselves to this kind of treatment?” Well, the answer to that, lies deep down inside of us all. We are all subjected to all kinds of torment in our daily lives that seems so overwhelming sometimes. Working, paying taxes, raising kids, dealing with rude neighbors, worrying about our government driving us into the poor house, or involving us in some useless war, etc. We all, by being part of society in general, subject ourselves to all kinds of mental and physical abuse, like it or not.

I started my Journey of transition at the same time I met the Baroness. I have found (for me) that facing a whip, or flogger, giving myself over to be tied up or have my body restricted in some deviant manner, has made me fearless in my everyday life. It has made me unafraid and unashamed, to come out to the world and live my life as me, no matter who likes it or not. If you can stand up to a bull whip you can stand up to an abusive boss, hater on Facebook, bigoted bully on the street, or any other situation.

The Baroness has been my guide or mentor, helping me get in touch with my inner power and coaching me with respect to being feminine. She is all woman and a powerful one at that. I started out as a “Sub” and quickly realized I am a “Switch.” I like to give and take. I have gained my own position in the community as an independent Dom Switch. I still serve the Baroness of my own free will — I am not one of her “slaves.” (Subject for another posting.) I have earned my position as a Dom, by being a sub for the last few years and learning what it means to let go of “Power.” By doing so I have gained, “Power.” Power over fear, fear of pain and fear of letting go.

When I’m at a SMBD party, I am basically the opening act, so to speak. I volunteer to the Baroness to be subjected to her whip, or get tied up to break the ice at the party. To show new people in the community that there is nothing to fear but themselves. I am like a performer in a deviant circus. When others see me laughing and having a good time it helps them to try something. I have watched many others come to the gathering of the Baroness’ Retinue as shy “Newbee’s” and leave with a new found power. You can see it in their eyes, they glow!

I wouldn’t suggest this lifestyle to everyone, but for me it’s like fun therapy, I spent 57 years of my life being afraid to be me, “Rachel,” and now I have reached a place where I fear nothing. And it doesn’t cost me $100.00 an hour.

At the most recent party I spent the evening in an “inflatable straight jacket” and was made to wear deer antlers. You might think, “How hard can that be?” Well let me tell you, spend 3-4 hours in a latex straight jacket; you can’t move your arms and it does start to get very hot inside the garmant, especially when you’re already in a latex dress. It’s very uncomfortable and once in the jacket you have to trust or depend on someone else to get you out. When they are ready. LOL! There was also suspension going on. That’s where someone is tied up with rope in a very artistic way, then hung from a metal rigging, exposed to everyone who might walk by and smack, whack or tickle you as you hang there helpless. It’s very exciting and meditative at the same time.

A lot of people think this is about sex, I assure you, you may get a rush or high from being whipped, flogged, or hung from the ceiling, but at The Baroness’ Retinue gathering there is no sex or nudity allowed. This is about endurance, self empowerment, serving, trust, respect and just plain old FUN! So I hope you all enjoy the pictures and my short explanation. If anyone is interested in exploring this lifestyle please feel free to ask questions or contact me privately, and I’ll be glad to help you out anyway I can.

Spank you very much!
Love and respect,
Rachel Xaviera

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