Tell us about yourself...I’m an older married heterosexual male cross-dresser who is still in the closet. I\\\'ve been dressing and/or dabbling with female lingerie off and on for the past 35+ years.
The more I have aged, the more my inner female desires have intensified and their yearning to be released increases daily.
My working life has been spent in male dominated jobs, (Foundry, Fire Fighting, Military), limiting my ability to express any of my feminine desires or traits, which left me very few options.
Over the years my wife has struggled with understanding and excepting my feminine side, she has somewhat tolerated it, as long as I do not push the issue, or totally dress while she is around.
After retiring, I have focused more on satisfying my inner feminine desires, and working towards slowly feminize my self as away to have the outside align more with the inside. To help accomplish this I have had my ears pierced and wear ear rings; grown my hair long with curls, undergone permanent facial hair removal so my face and neck are always smooth and hairless, had my brows done in a very feminine style with permanent makeup, I wear eye liner daily and maintain my nails shaped and at least a ¼ long. The things I have done so far allow me to be more in tune with my inner feelings. I know I get a lot of second looks, but I do not really care what others think when they look and wonder about me.
I have only been out in public one time while dressed, and that was years ago.
I under dress daily, and fully dress when ever I have the opportunity to do so.
I have shared my feminine desires and photos of me dressed with my daughter who lives in California, but have not had the courage to do the same with my sons.
I live in a small town, on a dead-end street where the neighbors know every thing you do.
I have been a member of the TGFORUM web site for at least the past 10 years; I have a profile posted, along with a few photos of my self dressed.
My ultimate goal is to overcome my fear of my spouses reaction to my desire to be out and about, then gain confidence in my female self and muster the courage that it will take to go out dressed in public and be the lady I so desire to be.
