Hello,
I’m not really sure if I belong here, but I guess that’s why I’m here… I’m just confused and looking for answers really.
I was born male, but have always admired females. I can’t say that I have always dreamed of being a woman. More so, I have been attracted to the beauty and softness of femininity. I don’t feel beautiful in a male body. The female form, with its smooth curves, makes me envious. It makes me want that aesthetic.
I dislike men in general, and am not attracted to them. I’m also happily married to a woman who is my world. I have had an interest in crossdressing from a young age, but have never really experimented with it. It was very frowned upon in my home environment. I have also discouraged the thoughts by telling myself that I would never look as good as a “real” woman does. Now, in my 30’s, I find myself wondering if I have been trying to avoid who I really am. I feel like I need to experiment, but I don’t know how to go about that. I don’t want to do anything in secret from my wife, but I also fear for how she might react. I feel like if I tried to dress up as a woman, I would either feel right or wrong about it, and then I would be able to put the matter to rest. Gosh… I just don’t know what to do.
Thanks for reading.
