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I started off at a young age, I knew I was supposed to be born a girl so I started dressing in my sister’s dresses & skirts. Within two years I was polishing my fingers & toe nails, getting dressed up completely ie: panties, bras & pantyhose, wearing full makeup, doing my own hair & sneaking outside at night to walk around. Then I found out my sister was taking estrogen pills & I began stealing them & taking them, after about three months, my sister told our mother that her estrogen pills were not lasting her like they should, my mother & sister asked me if I was taking my sister’s pills, I told them that I was not & I stopped taking her pills. A few months later, while going thru my sister’s clothes looking for something to wear, I found my sister’s birth control pills, our mother didn’t know anything about my sister being on them so I took them all, my sister couldn’t tell our mom. I took my sister’s birth control pills every month for five months, after the third month my boobies started to grow, I loved it, if I wore just a tee shirt you could plainly see my nipples & two small bumps pushing out my shirt. One day while my mother & sister went shopping, I put on my sister’s panties, push up bra & suntan pantyhose along with her tight, skinny jeans, black, open toed pumps & her black, low cut, tight fitting top, I put my hair up in a bun, put on full makeup & perfume, got one of her purses & went down stairs & sat on the sofa while I gave my finger nails three coats of bright red nail polish that I found in my mother’s room. As I waited for my nails to dry, I looked at myself in the mirror, I loved what I saw but I wanted to look more feminine, I got my mom’s tweezers & plucked my eyebrows into pencil thin, highly arched lines, I didn’t care about how I was going to explain my feminine eyebrows, I just wanted to look as much like a girl as I could. I then got a sewing needle & double pierced both of my ears, I went to my sister’s jewelry box & got two pairs of large, silver, hoop earrings which I put into the holes in my ears. When I went back down stairs & looked in the big mirror, I actually saw a real girl looking back at me, I was amazed at what a difference thin, arched brows made to feminize your face & I just loved how my earrings swung from my ears every time I moved my head. With my sister’s push up bra, you could easily see my cleavage with the low cut top & looking down at my feet, I could see my dark red toe nails covered with pantyhose peeking thru the open toes of my heels. I was so happy with the way I looked that I just had to go outside so people could see me. I decided to change out of my skinny jeans & into a skirt before I go outside, I chose my sister’s grey, belted, mini skirt to wear & traded my jeans for the skirt, I got my purse then did one final check in the mirror then headed out of the back door & into our yard. I walked to the back of our yard then thru the neighbors yard &out to the street. I loved hearing my heels clicking on the sidewalk & the cool air blowing on my pantyhose covered legs but the best feeling was seeing all of the cars that were passing me, seeing me as the girl I so wanted to be. I walked all the way to the main street where I went over to the bus stop & sat down, crossing my legs like a lady. After a brief rest I got up & decided to walk by the super market to let all of the shoppers see the real me, I was kind of hoping that someone who knew me would see me & recognize me, I wanted everyone to know that I wanted to be a woman. I wanted to be caught so bad that I decided to walk home & go into the house thru the front door, this would give me a chance to be seen by all of our neighbors dressed as the woman I longed to be. As I turned onto the street I lived on, I saw two girls walking towards me, I knew both of them, they lived four doors down from us, I continued walking & I smiled at them as we passed each other, they didn’t recognize me & that made me feel like a real woman, I never wanted to go back to being a guy again, I just wanted to live as Joanne for the rest of my life. As I entered our house I looked in the mirror, I touched up my makeup then, while looking at myself I thought, how will I ever explain to my mother my pierced ears, plucked eyebrows, hairless body & polished fingers & toe nails, that was when I decided to just let her & my sister see me as the woman I want to be. To make sure I wouldn’t change my mind, I went to my mother’s room & got out all of her long lasting, water proof makeup & put it on myself, I then got all of the makeup remover & nail polish remover & poured them all into the toilet & flushed them, there was no changing my mind now. I went down stairs & sat on the sofa & gave my finger nails two more coats of bright red nail polish, when my nails were dry I then gave them three coats of wet shine top coat. I loved the way my nails shined when light hit them, I sat on the sofa with my legs crossed, my purse sitting next to me & my hands folded in my lap waiting for my mother & my sister to get home.