Reply To: How Do You Know if You Are Trans?
joannesometimesI have always felt like I should have been born a girl, every night I would pray to God to let me wake up as a girl, it never happened. All thru my youth I would dress up in my older sister’s things, I progressed to wearing makeup & doing my hair. Dressing up in the house was getting to be just not enough so I started sneaking outside at night after everyone went to bed, I loved walking around town dressed completely as a girl, I hated it when I had to go back home & change. Soon I began wondering what it would be like to be with a man as a girl, I finally got my chance while hitch hiking one day, the guy who picked me up told me he was bi sexual & I told him about my wanting to be a girl, we made plans to meet at the park down the street from my house on Friday night, I got all dressed up for him, I did my hair, makeup & I even polished my finger nails & toe nails. We started kissing in his car & the next thing I knew, I was giving him oral sex, I found that I really liked giving oral sex & loved the taste of his sperm. He talked me into trying anal sex with him & I found that I really liked that also, I remember thinking the whole time, I hope I don’t get pregnant. At 19 I got engaged to a girl & we married, I’ll never forget seeing all of the clothes, shoes & makeup she had for the first time, I knew I would be wearing everything she had soon. I used our first Halloween together to dress up in front of her, I made it look like it was all her idea but she kind of knew something was not right when she seen that I shaved my whole body & I made her pierce my ears & pluck my eyebrows then polish my finger nails & toe nails. After the party I left my makeup on & wore panties & a nightgown to bed. The next day, she came home early from work & caught me fully dressed, sitting at her vanity doing my makeup with my hair up in electric curlers. She asked me a lot of questions & I wound up telling her that I wanted her to get on female hormones so I could take them, just until I got small boobies then I would stop but that was a lie, I wanted large boobies, the bigger the better. I was now wearing a bra, panties & pantyhose every day, even under my work clothes, any time I was at home I was wearing makeup, nail polish, heels & a dress or a skirt, I wore nightgowns every night & I threw out all of my male underwear & socks, I even started wearing my wife’s jeans, tops & flats when we would go out shopping. I would get my wife to give me oral sex & when I would orgasm in her mouth, I would make her spit it into my mouth, she told me on several occasions that our friends were noticing that I was wearing mascara & pantyhose & that I had my ears pierced & my eyebrows were plucked. The straw that broke the camels back was when she caught me getting dropped off in front of our apartment by my boy friend who I snuck out to meet after she fell asleep, she was standing at the window watching me kissing him & rubbing his crotch, to top it off he had given me a hickey on my neck while he was screwing me & I didn’t know it. I walked up the steps to our apartment & sat down on the sofa, just as I sat down the light turned on & there stood my wife, she asked me how long have I been getting dressed up & sneaking out at night to see my boy friend, I told her I didn’t have a boy friend & that’s when she told me she was standing at the window watching me kiss him & rub his crotch then she asked me if my boy friend gave me the hickey on my neck while he was screwing me, I meekly looked at her & said yes. She said her & her mother would be by tomorrow after work to get her things, she said that I may as well be dressed as a girl because she said she told her mother all about my dressing as a girl & wanting to take female hormones & wanting to be with men, she said her mother noticed that her panties were stretched out when she did her wash for her. She told me now I can live full time as a girl & have my boy friend stay over with me because she was divorcing my sissy ass.
